introduction <3

let me introduce myself & my tc real quick.

you can call me stella, and him “j” (we have a 16 years age gap).

“j” is my history and geography teacher — a very french thing — since september and i’ve had a crush on him for just as long.

i think him and i are a closer than other students and teachers usually are. by that i mean that we’re much closer and are able to have deeper conversations than usual. we share the same sarcastic sense of humor, an avid interest in politics, history and literature. sometimes when i have a free period i’ll hang around his classroom and if he’s also free we’ll have a conversation about anything and everything. those are my favorite moments because he’s one of the funniest people i know.

disclaimers !!!! i am a minor so i do not wish to receive any messages of a sexual nature, that will result in a block and report. this being said, “j” has obviously never tried to engage in any form of inappropriate endeavor towards me — i am a minor and he is a grown man.

i will use this space to document my life, the evolution of our relationship and of my feelings towards him.

all the love, stella!!!

i’m lowkey spamming rn but i’m at lunch and none of my friends that usually eat with showed up to school today :/

if there was any sense of fairness on god’s green earth, i wuld be old enough to date my tc

also, my friend took a photo of him walking and sent it to me on snapchat. she captioned it “your man” as a joke, little does she know how infatuated i am with this man.

omg omg you guys. just this morning, i had free periods so i decided to hang out in front of J’s classroom, because the window sills are comfortable and it was raining so: vibes. i was just reading a book and when the bell rang and his students started coming out of class, he looked left and right in the corridors and when he saw me he started smiling and asked me how i was. then he asked me what i was reading, i told him the title of the book and THEN FOR LIKE 10 WHOLE MINUTES WE TALKED ABOUT LITERATURE AND OUR HOBBIES. at first there was like a whole meter between us but he got closer to me as we talked and genuinely seemed interest in what i had to say.

unfortunately, he had a meeting just after so he left BUT I WAS BLUSHING SO HARD.

One Sister have I in our house

One Sister have I in our house -
And one a hedge away.
There’s only one recorded,
But both belong to me.

One came the way that I came -
And wore my past year’s gown -
The other as a bird her nest,
Builded our hearts among.

She did not sing as we did -
It was a different tune -
Herself to her a Music
As Bumble-bee of June.

Today is far from Childhood -
But up and down the hills
I held her hand the tighter -
Which shortened all the miles -

And still her hum
The years among,
Deceives the Butterfly;
Still in her Eye
The Violets lie
Mouldered this many May.

I spilt the dew -
But took the morn, -
I chose this single star
From out the wide night’s numbers -
Sue - forevermore!

- Emily Dickinson

i actually need him so bad, it’s not even funny

i love the way he validates me academically. i’m a good student so i often receive praise from teachers and adults in general, but his compliments are so much more meaningful. he truly knows how show me my strengths and encourage me to seek for excellence. the way his compliments are always so sincere, personal and accompanied by his angelic smile is the thing i love the most about him.

oh my gosh!! i won’t see J for two whole weeks bc of spring break. what am i going tp do with myself???

i wonder wtf i was doing with my life before i became obsessed with him.